Enough is enough…

Ages have past me by, but I continues to fail myself and fall short. My numerous “resets” and “new start” or even “new Mingji” just me doing the same over and over again; occasionally improving on it, doing something different in spurts.

I think its time to really pull myself together, especially given the low I am in now, I think its a good time to start doing the right thing – ditching the rebellious self and start doing the right stuff. I may never be “lawful-good”; but at least I can ditch the “chaotic-neutral” to become somewhat “true-neutral” or “lawful-neutral”.

My emotional traits are such a drag, its time to cast it aside and become emotionless (as much as I can). Like the many heroes and protaganists in the various movies, they discards all emotions to appear absolute calm and cool – almost emotionless – just in order to move on in the story.

Unfortunately, the same thing applies in real life. The emotions are a form weakness. The emotions keep requiring upkeeps, causing me to keep making the wrong decisions on the daily basis. I think its time to stop. Its time to become Uchiha Sasuke; or at least Hyuuga Neji; or even Sai. Looking at all the characters that I like in Naruto, all of them have the same trait – they are all low-emotion geniuses. As mush as I like to see myself as a genius, I am no where near their emotional control.

Not to mention, my “genius” level had produced little of what geniuses should have created. And it is evident because I spent so much time trying to heal, trying coerce my heart, trying to feel better – all the time wasted on such activites could had been better spent on improving myself – or in Sasuke term – avenging.

Its totally time to dived myself into work, into study, into reading, into business, into moving along. Its time to eat clear and right all the time (perhaps only “cheat” occasionally), and go all out on the daily workout thing. Its time to sleep enough and not oversleep. Its time to do the chores that I need to do and not laze about anymore. Its time not to watch tv anymore. Its time to reduce drastically my time on facebook. Its time.

Its time.

Its time.

Its totally the time.

Enough is enough.