Lately, due to my stupidity of being to nice to one of my clients (undercharging by a lot), and the developments that is happening with them, is causing endless whining and defensive thoughts within my head.

Its tend to be pretty normal to have a mental preparation to set oneself’s stand and position on things in the mind first, before being placed in a position where I need to articulate my position. However, when this thought process is repeated on almost a daily basis, its getting really irritating to myself. Its basically whining and being defensive.

Now, I’m just consciously trying to stop myself from turning this into a bad habit (which will result in making me a “blame-the-entire-world” person). This bad habit would obscure my ability to see and relate to what others might feel and think if I do put out those angry words in the reality. But because so much thoughts are made in the mind over a long period of time, the emotions that are involved may be wrong and might turn out to be counter productive.

Its been quite a few times which I need to talk to myself and put the facts straight – just to ensure I stay sane.

Haiz… Thats what delayed payment from my clients do to my brains. =\