Recently, my inadequacy had been eating away at myself terribly, creating snafu situations that i had already foreseen would happen if i persisted on that lame tragetory that i am on…. And…… Woohoo! Snafu!

And i consequently had recognise that, emotions should be eliminated (at least for me) in order to maximise my productivity. Which i wrote about in my last blog post “Enough is Enough”…

Since, i had consciously shut out my emotions whenever i noticed I am having an emotional “surge” in my heart (usually negative). Whenever i think of sad thoughts, i immediately consciously shut it down and refocus my attention on the task at hand – more important, concentrate on removing that negative emotion and replace it with no emotions. No as in neutral. Emotionless as an emotion.

And thus far, it had been pretty successful. It helps me refocus pretty well and i can increase my productivity quite a bit. It feels a lot closer to my ideal self and i can see a lot more possibilities and see the paths ahead more clearly.

Its still an unknown if i can keep this up. But for my future, i must.